I got my exam result last Wednesday. Out of 56 students who got Mumtaz (or the first grade), not even one of them is me hahaha. But Alhamdulillah, I got Jayyid Jiddan or the second grade with the percentage of 80.2. Though I was hoping to be on the stage during the announcement, I realized that my effort in order to get the best result during the exam period wasn't really at the best so I wasn't really disappointed with the comeback. To be honest, the night before the results were announced, I didn't feel nervous at all. I felt neutral (?). So does after I received my result. Well, I did feel like crying when they were announcing the names but that was it. Some of my friends cried because they got what they have been expecting and another some cried because they didn't get what they have been expecting. Most of my close friends got the first grade and it would be a lie if I say I didn't feel envy and jealous but they deserved it and I'm happy for them. My parents weren't mad at me (thank God) and they congratulated me since I already did my best (which is not at all), though there was a bit a tone of disappointment in my mom's voice :\ But they were okay with it, I guess.
Like what I have said, my effort wasn't really at the best so I can't blame anyone except myself, for not working harder. But regretting is useless so I will just shrugged it off as I have another big exam this year so I'm going to focus on it instead. Aah next!
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So today I was supposed to go to a wedding of my dad's friend but got cancelled because my dad need to the hospital for medical check up, with my mom and my brother. My mom told me to stay at home and do homework or anything productive so here I am. In the house alone. My other brother still is roaming around with his friends since yesterday and I don't want to care about him because he is uncontrollable (is this a suitable word to use gaaaah wtv). I was doing my work when Namjoon tweeted to enjoy lunch and that was when I realized I haven't eat anything yet today except a little slice of yesterday's pizza in the morning. Oh speaking of pizza, I asked my "uncontrollable" brother to buy it for me after he is done with his work yesterday since I was craving for it. Turned out he doesn't even come back but instead used the delivery service to my house and made me pay for it because he was with his friends. What's worst is that it was raining heavily last night and the delivery guy was drenched in the rain when he was sending out the pizza. I was freaking out because yea, I wasn't expecting that and I feel so so so bad for him. My dad told him to stay for awhile in my house but he refused and went back to work in such bad weather. My heart sunk a little when seeing him drenched in the rain omg may God bless his kind soul, I prayed.
Anyway, back to my lunch story! Ok since I haven't anything, I thought I wanted to make fried rice or instant noodles to consume but to my dismay, my kitchen ran out of gas. And there's literally nothing to eat in this house. I can't even boil water. Then I saw a few slice of bread so I thought I can toast it and eat it with jam or butter or something and yes, I did it. But I guess today is my bad day because it got burnt. Almost completely. But I ate it anyway (I was hungry af and still hungry). Now I'm here, writing about it with my empty stomach. /wipes single tear/
Oh I just remembered this is the first post of 2015 and today is basically the last day of January. How fast the time flies, right? Well, there's not so much different from last year. It is just me getting older, the life is getting harder and my heart is getting stronger. School's okay but there are some new rules that made me want to skip school like everyday but I didn't haha. I got fever few days before and migraine has been a part of me every time I got back from school. Tons of homework and school activities but I'm used to it. I'm still a fangirl of my favorite boy bands and still listening to K-Pop songs despite the hugging controversy (haha that case is funny) and still loving Bangtan the same way I did last year. My Korean is improving from time to time, thanks to their almost-daily tweets (lol) and some other random Korean articles and of course translators. It's funny that I got my Korean skill better than my Arabic's because I self-taught Korean but got proper class for Arabic since I was 7 but still weak at it. Whatever. Got SPM this year and I still can't really balance my time for studies and other things and still hesitating about my ambition and future plan. I'm not the only one, I know but I'm kind of worried. Okay, I think that's enough. I should be working on my homework so till next time!
