We found each other again after 4 years. I have been waiting for that day since loooong time ago and i never really forget you. To be really honest, i wasn't expecting at all that you still remember me because i thought you would forget me. Turned out that you didn't. We shared a lot of things in these four days and i can see that you've changed a lot. You are more matured and better now. But you are still the same person i have been waiting for. After so many years, i can still feel the butterflies in my stomach.
Today, you told me about your hardest time. I didn't expect it at all because since the first day, you sounded happy and bright. We started off the topic about how i find having a partner is not necessary at this age but i can't disagree that it is good to have someone to care about you. Then the topic slowly drifted off to another where i felt like my heart shattered into pieces. You told me almost everything but to my own disappointment, i did nothing help you to comfort you. I hate myself for that and i'm truly sorry.
You were and still a strong boy. A strong grown up boy. You let yourself went through hell alone since you were very young. I wish i was there for you. I wish i could do something for you. However, even when you were telling me that, you were still joking. I can't imagine it, if i were in your shoes, i would have killed long time ago. Instead, you told me not to hurt myself and don't be like you. You told me it is okay to hate you. How? And why would i hate you? You did nothing worth for me to hate you. I just want you to know that i'm always here to listen to you. You are not alone in this. Keep that in mind. Even if you ever leave me here but then come back again, i'm still here. Just don't let the devils be near you.
Things will get better. Don't hurt yourself. I'll pray for you. We will be fine.